I’m not sure what to write, I’m sitting here in the studio staring at the screen. OK, I’ll google ‘Ego’ and see what it comes up with…OK. I understand what it is, I just don’t understand why people have one? I have no time for people with an ego. Do I have an ego? I don’t think so? Do I? The concept of an ego does not compute…it’s more fun to compute. If Ego was a song it would be sung by Donald Trump.
I still don’t get it. Is it something I should get?
Aaaaaaah.
We are all born equal. Not in the sense of wealth, or standing (whatever that is), that first breath outside the womb. That split-second. That first gulp of air. We enter the world un-programmed, innocent. Our brains ready to be filled with wonder, waiting to find our place in the world. We enter the world without an ego, why do some of us end up with one? Why? We live in a ‘Like’ world, do I like it that people like me? My work? Absolutely. Do I care if someone dislikes me, my work? Absolutely not. I’d be more pissed off if no-one said anything. I see negativity as a positive in that instance. I care if someone I know and respect doesn’t like what I do, what I have done. But a total stranger? No. Is that arrogance or honesty? Is that ego? Tangents. Tangents. Tangents. Focus on the task at hand Michael… Is ego already built-into a person, just waiting to be triggered. Waiting for its moment to step out of the shadows. To say hello, look at me! Look at me! I am great.
I don’t care what you do, listen to me. I don’t care. I care. I don’t care for cool people. I don’t get cool people. Why is it so fucking important to be cool? Is being cool a by-product of ego? I genuinely don’t understand the need to act cool. Why? Just be happy in your own skin. Please.
Birth. School. Work. Death. The cycle of life.
An ego gets in the way. People with an ego annoy me. I’m more interested in why they have an ego than talking to them. Shut up. Shut. Up. Is an ego an invisible shield for someone with little or no self-confidence? Or is it too much self-confidence that feeds an ego? Self-confidence is great, lets just leave it there shall we? Let others speak, listen rather than just talk about yourself. Listen, I love listening to people. A conversation is a two-way thing. Stop. Look. Listen. Don’t be the red crossing man, be the orange and green one too. It’s good to listen.
Do I have an ego? Is that why I said yes to doing this piece you are reading now? Are you reading this now? Am I being egotistical to think that you will be reading this piece? Do I believe that I have something to say on the subject? Is this a test? Have I failed the test?
I believe in self-belief. I do not believe in self-importance.
I believe in self-belief.
I believe.
Maybe that’s it. That is the answer?
Wait. It wasn’t a question was it? A trick question?
Was it?
I believe in self-belief. I believe in people.
I have no time for Ego.
I understand now. I think…